Monday 26 September 2016

Recognizing when it is okay to let yourself live

Without the confinement of the walls that have been built by society and what they deem to be normal and acceptable.

Being able to choose you. Selfishly choosing your happiness above that of anyone who threatens your peace of mind and your joy.

Going after the joys of your heart and stopping at nothing to ensure that you come from a place of existing and genuinely living.

Taking of the shackles society places on you and choosing your journey in accordance to what you want and not what seems fitting.

We hear every day about how "life is a journey" but does one really understand the depths of that statement.

It teaches you that you will fall. Get up.
You will get it wrong. Try again.
You will mess up. Fix it.

That leap of faith that allows you to allow a boy into your life when you thought love would never find you.

That leap of faith that has you sending in your proposal for the up-tenth time because you hope and dream they will finally hear your plea.

That leap of faith that has u trying out the lasagne dish yet again after failing miserably the first time and almost burning the house down.

I mean genuinely getting up and living a purpose filled life. Being okay with where you are, striving to be better and saying MY PACE.

Walking the life journey at your pace. Not looking next to you and what the next person is doing. But pacing yourself in accordance to YOU.

Sometimes it's okay to dance event though there’s no music playing and everything looks a mess.

It simply means you will appreciate the good when it comes around. It may just come dressed in a lazy smile and he may be called... 

Recognizing where you are not wanted and letting go.

The body has an internalized monitor
that beeps and goes off when it is in a space it is not wanted.
The natural instinct
is to make excuse after excuse as to why,
this person surely must want you because they have done A,B,C
If anything, it is the ego that is protecting itself from rejection.

It is easier to hold onto someone who doesn't want you than to let go
It has little to do with being faithful but more to do with self-value
More being able to understand
that you deserve better
and deserve clean pure cut love
That does not come with confusion and feeling wanted
When you value yourself
and will not go seeking affection
in a person who clearly wants to give it on their terms.
You know your worth

It's so easy to get caught in a cycle
of "getting little".
being okay with the little you get from this person.
Convincing yourself it okay

It is not okay. I
t is not okay to feel unwanted.
It is not okay to convince yourself it will get better.
You deserve better.

That through thick and thin love
comes with wedding vows.
Not a situationship
and not a confused boyfriend
who doesn’t know what they want
We have been programmed
to believe love is all enduring.
Yes it is,
with a husband
and a man who will love you RIGHT.
Not a boy whose confused

QUIT MAKING EXCUSES!
Get up and GO!
I mean get up and go in search of your true husband!

Enough with the
"He didn't talk to me all of yesterday becz he was drinking"
"He speaks down on me when he is upset"
"He is just confused"

God is not the author of confusion.
He will not give you a confused partner,
nor one that will make you feel less than what you are!
We need to quit playing these games!
Quit accepting less than what we KNOW we deserve.
Quit making excuses and start living purpose!
It is hard to kick a bad habit.
If that boy/girl is a bad habit,
kick the habit!
Tear stained face and all, walk!!


You will be okay!