Race you to the top

They say revenge is best served cold.  The truth is we all have people who would love to see us fail, they aren’t necessarily enemies per say--> I call them haters, but this blog wasn’t inspired by them,no! I read an article about the Petroleum Commissioner Immanual  Mlunga and Mr Knowledge Katti. Men I once looked up to, successful, powerful but most of all hard working. Coming from underprivileged homes, I saw truth!  At the end of the day we all want success and would curb our way to it no matter what road we take. Be it the less travelled one or the one with hurdles. I mean you find Richard founder of Virgin who never attended a University and is dyslexic yet today he is one of the richest men alive! So success then is simply excelling in what you are passionate about. As passion is the best energy drink, putting Powerade to shame mind you.
Anyway, I sat down and thought about success. Do I need to be corrupt to get to the top, because as unfortunate as it is: In Namibia, there always seems to be more then what meets the eye, namely corruption. How many of our successful figures go under scrutiny day in day out! Where there is smoke there is fire, lack of evidence is what lets them get away in my opinion.

“Don’t find an idol, find a mentor “ is the quote I woke up to this morning. Find someone who has done well for themselves and aim to do better. So what happens when I realize the person I looked up to is after all corrupt? I aim to be better, take the positive traits and aim to be more than they ever were. I look inside myself and wonder whether I have corruption within me, as in would I find it in myself to go the easy way and cheat my way to the top?? Hell, I have wanted to cheat in exams and I have (don’t judge me, you have too! Only difference is I didn’t get away with it and boy did I learn.  Almost failed 9^th grade). Fortunately for me I learnt a valuable lesson at a young age- Cheating will inevitably get your fingers burnt!  You can only get away so many times before you get caught, then what? All that hard work to dust?  Cheating is accompanied by what you put in. No one will sit and think, sure she is corrupt, but think about what she has put in. Never sweetheart, it won’t happen!

Look, we all have it in ourselves to cheat. You will be presented with ample opportunities to do so, but it takes a strong character to do it the right way. If you are going to cheat, a standing ovation if you get away with it. Be warned though, it won’t be pretty when you are caught cheat-handed.. ooops I mean red-handed, because believe you me there is someone out there wishing and hoping for your failure. Don’t give them gap to get what they want! #anti-corruption #anti-haters #teamSuccess

At work...

So I am sitting here thinking about the changes that have occurred in my life my life since last year.. and the honest truth is they are endless. One particular one stands out..My personality..

At school I as over confident and arrogant.. The latter is nothing I take pride in but swiftly moving along. Since I left school I was surrounded by people with strong personalities and the truth is it is overwhelming as I come from high school where I was BOSS and bang I brought back to earth and it is challenging as I start to feel like im loosing myself. I should not need to feel better then some on to be confident in who i am.. So where is the challenge??

Is it hard for me to be able to stand out without the need to overpower someone else.. It shows weakness which is a lame look. and i hate it.. Its been on coming for quiet  while and has resulted in insecurities planting themselves where they are not needed.. anyway where work comes in. Radio is a tough job. Filled with people with strong personalities.. To be continued..

Hitting the books

Am I the only one who looks for a thousand reasons to not start studying?  I’d go as far as brushing my teeth, tidying my room, washing dishes (which I hate with a total passion), just so I do not have to sit down and tackle the endless pages of black and white without a trace of picture or anything of the sort. Just endless pages and pages with words hardly making any sense. Yes, you guessed it this is another one of those activities to postpone studying. Nonetheless, I have not blogged in a while and I thought what the hell, one more thing won’t hurt.

Its been an extremely difficult week, having almost lost my boyfriend yet again, and this time to the likes of people who don’t seem to know where in the hell to stick their noses. Its been said that I am flinging with what? 7 guys, of whom mind you I don’t know three of the names mentioned. It saddens me to see people either envious or simply bored with their lives try get to what has nothing to do with them. Granted though, they had almost succeeded in breaking us up, but what the hell, ALMOST doesn’t count. So middle finger and life goes on.

I had decided this blog would be where I pour out my heart and I can face the world and be like “what_fcuking-ever”, but the honest truth is, when I turn around and walk away, tears roll down my cheek. What is said hurts like hell, people liken me for some whore who can’t stick to her man. I mean one rumor would be fine, but 7?? Like honestly, if I were to hear that about someone else my automatic response would be “where there is fire there is smoke”. Yet, when these things are said about me I expect others not to be believe, I feel like a complete hypocrite and I take no pride mind you!

So at the end of the day, they’re just rumors right? People will forever talk and not everyone can love you, such is life. It happened to the best of us! Anyway, so beside all that is happening I walk around with my head high as though my nose is bleeding, I have lived by this quote>>> The sun will shine, babies will be born, people will hate and life goes on … >>> and I do not intend on stopping now. ENOUGH SAID