Forgive me if I am wrong

Forgive me if I am wrong

It’s never the betrayal that hurts most, its the fact YOU trusted them.

However, how does one justify hurt and pain brought unto you by someone you never knew? How can the world of cyber paint you out to be such a monster you do not recognise yourself when you look in the mirror. When everyone has one perception of you, you need to take of the cladding of rattle skin and look deep within yourself and uncover the person you had hoped to be and are no longer.

Everyone points a finger and laughs. You cannot for a second have a bitter feeling of resentment towards anyone because it would not make a synapse in them miss a transmission. It’s that simple huh? Its as simple as knowing that on a social network not a damn soul gives a rats ass about you because in the end we are all trying to be relevant. If not, why then are we on social networks? Is it not the constant power struggle of being or trying to be relevant without seeming too bothered?

I said it a year ago and I say it again, I hate the person I become on social networks. I am not that person, but how then do I justify it? If that very person is a reflection of who I become when pushed and shoved into a corner? Then we get the cliché of “it doesn’t matter what people think of you as long as those close to you know exactly who you are”, which in  a sense is true, however the image you portray paints a picture of who you are.  I cannot get 1300 followers to understand me for who I am, no! I just cannot.

But, yes there is and will always be a but.. That person is painted by no other then me. Does that then in a sense not start to reflect who I am? I say no it does not, because under that hard exterior portrayed to the world is a marshmallow of a girl. A girl who will set aside anything to be there for her friends. A girl that will work the skin off her fingers to ensure and claim success one day. A girl who would never and I mean never.. You know what. Why try explain  myself to the very people who do not take the time out to get to know me and draw conclusions. It is an absolute waste of time, because in the end those that want to hate you will hate you no matter how much good you do. So toodles. I shall no longer try and explain or justify my actions!

Iinima kaina shi hainigi.. @MavisBraga